If you think nothing is being done against sexual abuse and violence, you are wrong. More and more help becomes available, but if you want to be helped the first step is often the most important one. Break the silence. Talk about it.
From the ages of 6 to 15 Patricia was sexually abused, raped, beaten and battered by her father. She dared tell no one for many years.
The first step wasn't easy for her either, but marked the beginning of a new life and happiness after all. She married William and had two lovely children. Who could ever have thought that? She certainly didn't.

with this stick in my hand
I conjure myself to a distant land
more pleasure, no fear
hocus pocus far away from here

I hate my body
it's not my body
if only I could stop this pain
so that it never comes again

Thousands of tears on my pillow
I'm weeping like a willow
disgraced and naked again
death is what I wish for him

I don't want to let it rest
I want to get if off my chest
help me make such a magic stick
or find some other magic trick

Patricia